One of the recurring themes in my life right now is the idea of "seasons of life" and how things change for us depending on where we are in our journey.
This season is not exactly the easiest one I've been through. There are lots of questions, lots of figuring out what being "Kelly" means right now, and how to balance that with being wife and mama and all the other things that make me who I am.
What do I have right? What do I need to rethink? I may actually have five minutes now for a hobby - what should I do? Am I doing okay with Sarah? Am I still being a good wife to John? Am I the only one tired of folding clothes over and over and over again with no end to the cycle in sight?
I think the repetition of right now is the worst part. The same thing, in and out, every day... it's not that I want or need a grand adventure. But have you ever tried cooking for a finicky preschooler? I made homemade mac and cheese, which she refused to eat. But she'll gobble down Kraft in a box like it's the best meal she's ever had. Make her a burger at home and she barely touches it. Go out and she'll inhale one. No matter what meat you use, what seasoning or lack thereof... so I do the same things over and over because it is what she eats, and I know I'm not the only one bored of it, but what do you do? Just keep trudging forward, hopeful for the day you can serve green peas and be sure she'll eat them.
It's just hard to be motivated. So I'm trying some new ideas, reading some new things, and committing to trying one new thing every week. I don't know what that will be. It might be a new recipe, or a new book, or talking to someone I don't know well.
It's just time for me to find some new things, and explore a bit. Nothing crazy just yet, I mean, I am not going to start drinking Pepsi instead of Coke for goodness' sake. Although I have made the decision to give up soft drinks of all sorts again. I just felt better. (After a few days... this headache is NOT fun.)
Time to gear up for a season of learning and trying to be the best me I can be. Got to set a good example for the little person, after all.